the life of iresi

Some days are good and some days are bad... I used to think that my life was like a roller-coaster... one day good things happened and then the next day bad things then good things etc... (but mostly a pretty non-scary roller-coaster... but a few times it is scary too...) like if I had a good day I would get a bad day and then a good day...

After rain comes sunshine etc... but I hope I won't have a bad day tomorrow just because I had a good day today.

I remember those times when I felt bored at work and time went so slowly...  but I'm not like that... that's not me... I got affected by other people... it affected my negatively... I don't like people who complains about things... and I rather see the good things and focus on that. Luckily now I feel there are positive influences in the air :) Today I had things to do all of the time but not so that I felt stressed and I had different kind of things to do and I really felt I accomplished things and managed to do the tasks I had thought of doing and at the same time time just flew away and before I knew about it I had to leave work to go to see my physiotherapist! :) Days like that when everything just runs smoothly and people say nice things to you and you have nice people around you and have fun and are productive, that's good days :) And also when something unexpected happens that makes you feel good :)  Even my physiotherapist said that I was doing well! :) (even though I have been really lazy and had not had the time to exercise at all since the last time... and I didn't tell her :P) But on the other hand I always have lots of more energy when I haven't been exercising in a while... even after I have been sick I feel I have more energy when I exercise... (because at least then I have rested...)

But I feel a little weak... I feel I should go to the gym more often... but it is not that tempting anymore... but I gotta do something... I don't like to feel weak :P Even if I guess I'm not that much weaker it feels like that... I hate that... I kinda like having some muscles... :P Now if I flex my biceps they aren't that big at all... not that they ever have been big... but I think they looked a bit bigger before...

And I've also been really bad at running... haven't run since Vår Ruset... really really bad... I always take the bike thought... but I should run too... But today I applied for yet another race for women... "Iform-loppet" or something like that... It is in September so I've got plenty of time to train for that one and that time I hope I can do better then I did at Vår Ruset.... then I hope I will not feel any pain anywhere and will be able to run the whole time... I hate when I had to walk... I didn't walk much... but I did... damn it... (but I didn't have much time to train for that race and I know that if I just run every week I will be able to run the whole race without problem in a few weeks.)

Now it is time to go to bed!